It has been 13 long months without you Dad. I wonder if I will ever stop feeling like I have fallen into a bottomless well of sorrow each time I visit your grave? It is a peaceful place, but my heart aches - I grieve for you still.
I know that nothing I do or feel will bring you back, but I miss you so much. More than anything in the world, I wish you were still here. You were always there for me, Dad. Sometimes I miss you so much I just don't know what to do. I loved you with all my heart and soul. My worst fear was losing you, and it happened.
When you died, I was strong - I was relieved that you wouldn't have to suffer any more. I know you hated being so weak and sick. I always thought you could beat the cancer Dad, I never thought it would win. I had hope in my heart until the last few days, and then I knew you couldn't fight any more. I had to let you go, but it was so hard to do.
Losing you was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I loved you with all of my heart and know you will always be with me until we meet again.