It's funny how the mind works. If you are expecting to see something, you can sometimes miss that it isn't there, or it is wrong, because your mind just can't click into gear and recognise that what you are looking at isn't correct. Sounds weird doesn't it, but it happens. Staring you right in the face but you just don't see it.
I was just thinking before how I spent the first half of my life wishing my life away and I may well be spending the second half wishing it away. I have regrets, and would do things differently if I could turn back the clock, but unfortunately you can't do that. There is no past, there is no future - there is only now and you have to make the most of it as life is short and we come this way only once.